I’m finally saying hello to 2020. The last decade brought me many things. Love, pain, success, knowledge, growth, happiness, peace and joy. But also, self-discovery, self-worth, self-love. I’ve grown mentally, emotionally, spiritually and sexually! As an emotional creature, I sometimes feel a bit deeper than maybe the average.

I’ve learned so much about love, loss and missteps.

I’ve learned about love addiction rooting from feelings of abandonment and rejection that are deep rooted from childhood.

Learned how that love addiction caused irrational feelings of desperation and unhealthy attachments.

Learned how much trauma not only shapes who you are but creates the inability to even see that a problem exists. We get conditioned to pain and we don’t even realize it. We confuse pain with love and the true form becomes unrecognizable.

Learned what it really looks like to own my shit, have patience with myself and grow from it.

Learned accountability and responsibility which helped with emotional regulation.

Learned that I didn’t fully express the dark parts of myself out of fear of judgment, shame or further abandonment.

Learned that those dark parts are part of my story and to allow them to be just that with only progress moving forward.

Lastly, I truly learned the importance of loving and being loved in a language that I understand and what it should feel like. To also accept others and understand their love languages how to meet them there.

For everyone that rocked with me this last decade, it was one hell of a ride and I wouldn’t change a thing about it!

Thank you to my final year in my 30th decade, for the lessons you’ve taught me. Time to knock out these goals and intentions for this week, month, year and decade!

You are deserving of great things and they will all come your way.