This stranger graced my presence decades ago. The energy of said stranger made my mind explode with possibilities, my heart with joy and my gut with hope. This stranger felt like unconditional, like safe, like authenticity… Thank you beautiful stranger, your existence enhanced mine for the future. When you were my present, the darkness superseded my light. The pain superseded the joy. The inability to sit in the moment, in the joy, in the gratitude…was a major turning point. I didn’t allow myself to sit in the joy because I didn’t think I deserved it. Didn’t think I was worthy of anything that wasn’t difficult. Had to feel like a struggle to be real. Had to be harsh, corrective and painful. That’s what love felt like until the veil began to lift. The veil began to lift in 2019 and the broken hearted version felt healing for the first time. I could’ve feel love past pain. My emotions are so completely raw and vulnerable in this moment so I chose to write completely from my heart. Maybe you all have met this stranger as well. The stranger is my past.…
Do you decide you’re in love from the moment you lock eyes? Is it the conversation? The energy? The first kiss? That moment of sexual intercourse?
Does it feel like a cool breeze on a summers night? Like a glass of water when you’re parched? A warm bath after a long day?
That feeling when he’s not just on your mind but in your mind. He’s in your soul and he nurtures it. His words are filling and affirming to the heart. His touch is like silk or satin on the skin. His kiss is liquid gold but his lips are pillows. His hands are strong with a body that’s sculpted. His whispers make you purrr literally and figuratively. He increases the secretions on every level. The way he speaks and teaches and supports and listens and… Makes. You. Bite. Your. Lip, at the thought of him. All of this without actually having sex? This man is different. He is healing when speaking of healing in a physical form. What is the temperature in a room of passion with high self control?
How do you know it’s love? His whispers in your ear… down your spine… down your thighs… Up. Your. Thigh. He’s sensational, but is it love? And does he really exist?
Life is funny. Love is powerful. Sex is the intertwining of souls. Intoxication. Consumption. Energy. Overwhelming. The staircase to all things love, passion, soul joining….
Is it possible to control who you love and how you love them? Does sex complicate that?
I have this idea that when you have sex with a person, your souls are joining. No matter how brief, that person is apart of you forever. I didn’t respect or even consider this portion of the equation when I was in my 20’s. I heard it before, but wasn’t sure what was meant by it.
I can say this, when you have sex with a person that you are both in love with and/or love beforehand, it is a completely different type of energy. One could say it’s electrifying. Have you felt before?
The act of sex is by far one of the most personal, intimate and enlightening engagements you will participate in. I implore you to be cautious who you share that part of yourself with. If you are in fact deeply in love with or love the person, you’ve now forever changed the dynamics of your love. You may feel possessive, attached and much more involved. Why is that?
Seems normal once you’ve shared yourself with a person. Do you punish yourself for doing it if the other person doesn’t feel the same way or when you don’t know what they feel? Do you even know what you’re feeling? Expectations… Are those feelings overwhelming? Are those feelings fair and warranted? Now what….
You met in a dream. You locked eyes and in that moment you simply knew. It was raw energy, serendipity and pure bliss. Their stare deep into your eyes let you know that in that moment the veil was removed and it was no longer a dream. Before the dream ends something hits your body and wake up to find a bruise in the same spot…. Was it a dream or is your lover on their way to find you? Energy is everything💕💕
Be cautious with your words. True with your intentions. Release negative withholdings. Soothe your inner being. Move and act in love. Be genuine.
Today is a wonderful day to renew your energy. Focus on cleansing and healing. Share your energy with like minds. If you choose to make love or have sex today, be intentional in that. The energy you release and the energy you take in all play a role in your life. Be aware of what you are choosing to internalize.
Sometimes we aren’t searching for what our minds or bodies desires. At time we are searching for what our soul needs. We don’t always realize that until it’s occurred. There’s a depth to all of us, which gets diluted by insignificant matters of life and flesh. We confuse people’s words with real meaning because it’s what we’ve deemed necessary to keep them in our life. All the while their actions have shown us the truth of their words.
If you speak on something that hurts you but they continue to do it, it means one of two things. They don’t want to or they don’t know how. The key to discovering which it is will be shown purely by their effort or lack thereof. Not matter what they say, when people truly love you, effort not excuses will occur. Not perfection, so don’t look for it because that’s not reality.
In actuality, some of these people were never meant to stay forever. As we grow and learn who we are, the picture won’t always be pretty. Accept it but don’t be too harsh on yourself, these are growing pains. Pay attention to what you pay attention to. Everything and everyone aren’t worthy of that much of you. You are this amazing ball of love that shares yourself unconditionally but are growing weary.
Just hold steady, those who desire and need your love, compassion and depth are nearing and those who are life lessons will soon fade away. You will never be too much for those you are created for.
When sex occurs, energy is transferred. Men, just like women desire a good connection with the person they are having sex with. The difference comes in where some women and men don’t recognize that need. Men need intimacy, nurturing, and erotic love making as well. They need a shoulder, an open heart, acceptance and listening ear. Sometimes men give themselves so freely because they weren’t taught to value themselves or were taken advantage of at a young age. Exposed to things that make vulnerability, trust, love and intimacy a difficult feat. For some men, the need to perform well supersedes the need to connect. Arrogance, aggressiveness and materialism can be a mask for low self esteem and low self confidence. Some seek acceptance by excessive sexual behaviors, raunchy verbiage and avoidance of emotions. Every woman isn’t deserving of every man just as every man isn’t deserving of every woman. There’s strength is controlling carnal desires and limiting them to those deserving. But take some time to uplift the men in your life, be it lover, son, friend or co-worker. Society says emotional vulnerability isn’t ok for them and we end up with toxic masculinity but swear no one knows why. Be the change 💕
A meeting by chance that lasts only for a moment. Years go by and paths cross again to blissful, seductive, confusingly passionate soul mate connection type of loving for 27hrs. The lip biting, leg quivering, lick around the labia until you pass out type of loving. The slow massage, toe sucking, booty massage, neck kissing, intentional, ear nibbling, who the fuck is this man, speaking sweet nothings to you, sensual genius type of love. The next day you’re in love until you realize…. it was all a dream and I think my next book will be erotica!!!!!
I just need to feel again. To really breathe and experience life in unique ways. I’ve never wanted to a person to leave others broken hearted, somehow I’ve been ok being the person that could be left broken hearted. I’ve made it ok for me to take emotional and mental hits and keep moving. This moment in my life, I have some control now. I can breathe a little. Life can and will deliver gut punches. People believe you can take them because you have been with little complaining. Sometimes you have to be quiet and focus on yourself. Healing takes time. That’s the best gift you can give yourself. At the end of the day, you can only change yourself and wish for growth for others. The road is long and the path isn’t clear but stay the course because you’re worth it.
You know the one you immediately thought of when you read the title. Yes, that one! Can you feel it? The moment when you can finally release that breath you’ve been holding in the second your lips touch… Yes. The engagement of your lips gently touching, arms wrapped around one another.
Maybe he sits you on the edge of the counter top and pulls you in as you wrap your legs around him. Your arms stretched around his neck while he slowly kisses your neck, your cheek, your lips.
Maybe you lay down while she breathes you in, rubs you down and finds herself more turned on simply by your smell and the feel of you. She slowly slides her hand behind your head to pull you closer to her with every deep breath. Your lips touch and there goes that breath again. Entangled. Immersed.
Maybe he holds you from behind, gently rocks you in his arms as you rest your head and he places sweet kisses on your neck and cheek. He turns you around to look into his eyes and your lips graze as you concentrate on one another. Then your lips softly touch, over and over again. The kiss so deep and passionate that you’ve become lost in time and space.
The chemistry is not only unmatched, it feels unreal. A great kiss is the match to a well lit fire….
BTWN LVRS: Changing The Narrative 
